Monday, August 27, 2007

Understanding

Throughout my stay in Calgary, people kept asking me about my future, given I'm already done my master's degree. I told them I was going to pursue yet another certificate called the Diploma in Music Performance at UBC, which will take me another two years.

If I had told 100 people about my conditions, I dare to say up to 98 people responded with more questions, "Why do you still need to study? Haven't you already got a master's degree? (... deleting many more subsequent questions)" I then had to use even more breath to explain my career ambitions and what-not. Every time I had to explain my situation, I felt more and more insensitive and annoyed to what I say. What don't people just be cool with I'm about to do and stop asking demanding questions?

Two people understood. One night I was having dinner with my fellowship counsellors (in Calgary of course), and as I told them about my dreams, they said they totally understood why I had to study more. They could even detect my mentality towards my plans. Wow, I was so amazed and thankful since I could finally find someone who think in the same page (even though they are not musicians) as I do.

I realize God is truly an understanding God. Even though I always know He is an understanding God, as it shows in His Words, I never trust it wholeheartedly because I haven't got an extraordinary experience. But He knows I am weak, so through my endless sharing with people about my future plans, He shows me His wonderful attribute in a very obvious way.

Thank You, Lord Jesus, once again. I love You.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Psalm 121

詩 篇 121
1 ( 上 行 之 詩 。 ) 我 要 向 山 舉 目 ; 我 的 幫 助 從 何 而 來 ?
2 我 的 幫 助 從 造 天 地 的 耶 和 華 而 來 。
3 他 必 不 叫 你 的 腳 搖 動 ; 保 護 你 的 必 不 打 盹 !
4 保 護 以 色 列 的 , 也 不 打 盹 也 不 睡 覺 。
5 保 護 你 的 是 耶 和 華 ; 耶 和 華 在 你 右 邊 蔭 庇 你 。
6 白 日 , 太 陽 必 不 傷 你 ; 夜 間 , 月 亮 必 不 害 你 。
7 耶 和 華 要 保 護 你 , 免 受 一 切 的 災 害 ; 他 要 保 護 你 的 性 命 。
8 你 出 你 入 , 耶 和 華 要 保 護 你 , 從 今 時 直 到 永 遠 。

Psalm 121 (NASB)
The LORD the Keeper of Israel.
A Song of Ascents.
1I will lift up my eyes to the mountains; From where shall my help come?
2My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth.
3He will not allow your foot to slip; He who keeps you will not slumber.
4Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
5The LORD is your keeper; the LORD is your shade on your right hand.
6The sun will not smite you by day, nor the moon by night.
7The LORD will protect you from all evil; He will keep your soul.
8The LORD will guard your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forever.


這一段經文我背誦如流,而當我過每天的生活,我都可以經歷到它的實在。

我擁有車牌已差不多5年。這5年來,除了有一兩次差點出事外,我真的一次都沒有get involved in a car accident. 每次出trip,神都保守我出入平安。每次坐公車,神都保守我安全到達目的地。甚至我有時在學校練習夜歸,神都保守我腳步安穩。回想一下,其實安全並不是必然的,因為每天都有不同的意外或不幸的事件發生。家人朋友們都叮囑我一定要小心,甚至給我一點物品去傍身。當然,他們是出自好意,不過神大能的手臂比任何東西更可靠。所以,我實在很少害怕,因為神給我有出人意外的平安。

神除了保守我的腳步外,還保守我身體健康。So far 我最常見的病痛都不礙於傷風感冒,而我的腿於2003年所受的virus都在一星期內康復。我深信神是不想阻礙我事奉,不過作為神的孩子,一定天天將身體獻上,當作活祭,because that's what God commands. (Romans 12:1)

Dear Lord, thank you so much! I love You! :-D