Lord, Thy Will Be Done!

Only four months have passed in year 2008, but I feel like 4 years have gone by. A lot has happened. I know this is such a cliche to say, but I mean it wholeheartedly this time around. Many good and exciting things happened, but at the same time, also a lot of suffering, failures and disappointments. Often negative things strike me more than positive things.

It's like I've purchased a multi-function machine - all come in one. Family death, friend problems, failing to get into a summer program after spending a vast amount of effort, not pulling off a great recital (or should I say, only pulled off a mediocre recital), "strange encounter" on the street ... all these (that seem important to me) happened while I'm still recovering from my emotional downfall and figuring out myself. MY GOODNESS! HELP!

I don't ever question God why I have to go through these difficult incidents, though I do wonder why I have to go through them all simultaneously while I feel like a cripple. Well, if I don't feel incompetent, how can I let God work through me? I've always heard that one's character can only be developed through suffering. As these events occured one by one, I start to ponder upon this and wonder if it has to be suffering that builds me up. Well, I believe the answer is yes ... especially when this point is emphasized often in the book I'm reading now. Suffering does make a person tougher. Look at me.

If what I've gone through so far this year is to make me a better servant of God, then all I'll say is, "Lord, I am willing. Thy will be done!"

【主啊！我願意】
曲、詞；吉中鳴
詩集：齊唱短歌第 03 集，5

主啊！我願意被你拆下，
主啊！我願意被你建立，
無論是多麼難，無論是多麼苦，
我仍願意來到主腳前。