今要主自己 Himself

I must say it's very hard to fully grasp the underlying meaning of this hymn. Probably I'll still not get it by the end of my life.

今要主自己 Himself
生命聖詩 Hymn of Life #393

1. 前所要是祝福，今所要是主；前所憑是感覺，今靠主言語；
前所要是恩賜，今要賜恩主；前我尋求醫治，今要主自己。

Once it was the blessing, now it is the Lord;
Once it was the feeling, now it is His Word;
Once His gift I wanted, now, the Giver own;
Once I sought for healing, now Himself alone.

2. 前用己力苦試，今完全信靠；前要一半救恩，今要全得救；
前常用手拉主，今主手牽我；前常漂流無定，今錨已拋妥。

Once was painful trying, now is perfect trust;
Once a half salvation, now the uttermost;
Once was ceaseless holding, now He holds me fast;
Once was constant drifting, now my anchor cast.

3. 前我忙於計劃，今專心祈求；前我非常掛慮，今有主眷佑；
前我隨己所欲，今聽主訓語；前我不住求問，今常讚美主。

Once was busy planning, now is trustful prayer;
Once was anxious caring, now He has the care;
Once was what I wanted, now what Jesus says;
Once was constant asking, now is ceaseless praise.

4. 前是自己作工，今靠主工作；前我欲利用主，今讓主用我；
前我尋求能力，今要全能主；前為自己勞碌，今為主而活。

Once it was my working, His it hence shall be;
Once I tried to use Him, now He uses me;
Once the pow'r I wanted, now the Mighty One;
Once for self I labored, now for Him alone.

5. 前我盼望屬主，今知主屬我；前我燈將熄滅，今照耀輝煌；
前我等待死亡，今候主再來；我一切的盼望，安妥主幔內。

Once I hoped in Jesus, now I know He's mine;
Once my lamps were dying, now they brightly shine;
Once for death I waited, now His coming hail;
And my hopes are anchored safe within the veil.

副歌：永遠高舉耶穌，讚美主不歇；一切在耶穌裡，惟祂是我一切。

Refrain: All in all forever, Jesus will I sing; Everything in Jesus, and Jesus everything.