Coffee House

Tonight is the SJC's semi-annual Coffee House, and I am involved in three of the seventeen acts: SJC choir, my own composition, and accompanying Jean with her song.

Can't foretell how the thing will go yet, but I have decided to make my own act a testimony of my personal experience with God in the past three-quarters of the year. I don't see why I shouldn't because, first of all, I really want to testify God, and second, I have just finished writing the song last week. The following is the lyrics to the song:

I’m Holding onto You
(Psalm 39:9)
曲、詞：黃筠詠 © November 14, 2006

尋夢中 捲起了內心千般暗湧
隨疾風 我每刻想去衝
但世間有多種壓迫想我後退
嘆息現實 多麼殘酷

迷亂中 只懂去自責焦急滿胸
愁浪湧 我每刻不放鬆
直至今 方可以放低藏在心
千斤般的那些怨憤

(Chorus)
因我所遭遇是出於你 我就默然不語
因我所經歷原是應許的旨意 我就放下茫然 歡欣承受
專心等候你 靠著你 仰賴你 每個時候
緊緊抱著你 從不放手 I’m holding onto You

迷路中 主給我勵勉 把我引牽
迎著風 我始終不退縮
現我可 專心一意的尋夢想
只因主不棄的同行

Repeat Chorus

我信有一天主會讓我見到祂恩惠
全為愛彰顯祂的美善
我信我始終都會完全衝開障礙
帶著盼望去為你頌唱凱歌

Repeat Chorus twice

I’ll always lean on You.

Really the past three-quarters of the year has been quite a journey for me to get through; it is a stepping stone for me to enhance my relationship with God. I can't agree more that God's grace is sufficient (as 1 Corinthians 12:9 says), and that He would let us go through something that would overtake us or is beyond our ability to handle (1 Corinthians 10:13). The more I draw my focus on Him, the more He opens up my eyes to see the general picture. The more I let things go, the more of God's grace I experience. It is so true that when we declare that we are weak, God would add His infinite strength, wisdom and intelligence upon us; and that's how we become strong again. In the contrary, if we always pretend to be "strong and tough", we would burn out eventually and hit very hard. So, "lean not on your own understanding (Proverbs 3:5)" but lean on God!

"Commit your way to the LORD; trust in Him, and He will act." (Psalm 37:5, ESV)

Thank you Lord Jesus! :-)