New Year, New Challenge

First of all, welcome myself to the quarter-century club.

Year 2007 passed in a blink of an eye. I must say, too many things happened last year. Well, I say that every year, but I find that year 2007 was just so busy, yet so life-changing.

I decided to go back to school in September at the beginning of last year. I've always thought after my master's degree I'm going to quit school for a while to work, to first pay back my student loan, and to make a first step to my "real" adulthood. But I find that with my qualities at the moment, I probably won't find a job of my ideals, so I decided to get an upgrade.

I finished my master's degree at the end of April. Boy wasn't that hard to finish. I was truly happy that I finished my degree. Now I get back to school, though, my attitudes are different. Realizing the reality and where I am at, I cannot be so simple-minded anymore. I must say this term has drawn me into depression because of my perfectionism. But thank God I'm able to step out of this difficult situation and I shall approach my upgrade with a new and rejuvenescent attitude.

I became my fellowship's president in year 2007. I went through quite some struggles before I agreed to take this post. Humorously speaking, around 8 years ago, when I thought I was totally capable of being my fellowship's president, I didn't become one. Only when I completely forgot about the idea God made me one. God took 8 years to shape me, which is a long time in modern terms (but short comparing to Moses). Anyhow, I was thankful to have taken this post, for it pushed me to make good connections with brothers and sisters in Christ. Actually that was my only vision.

My church went through a lot of changes and restructuring in the past year. I'm happy to be part of it. Actually I became a member of VCAC in December. This is a new landmark of my ministries in VCAC.

I'm finally able to completely rely on God in my love issues. It's not so important to feel attached to a guy all the time; in fact, it's a huge relief that I can let it go and wait for God's preparation. And for that very reason, I reconciled with a good friend of mine who used to be my love rival. I also reconciled with another friend whom I had misunderstanding with for a long time. After these two incidents, I truly believe it is very important to maintain affability with your friends. You never know how much hurt it can do you if you don't maintain a good friendship with them.

I decided to move out in February. It's a rather spontaneous decision. I always plan things way ahead and stick with them. But I'm starting to feel lonely in my dorm, and am longing for family support, so I'm going to move to my church friend's house.

My grandma is having cancer. Kind of unbelievable. Anyhow, not a convenient location to share her condition. My only concern is that she is still a non-Christian.

Anyhow, in the new year, I would continue to study hard. My parents are going to support me financially unconditionally, so there is no excuse for me not to work hard. Besides, I hope to continue to pursue a life of holiness. I discover many of my friends in Christ, even myself, are going through many moments of weakness. If we don't hold on to God, we will fall hard, and it will cause us a lot of regret. So no matter what happens, don't lose faith in God!


挑戰
曲、詞：黃筠詠 (c) April 21, 2001



進退兩難 在困境中闖盪
滿是悲傷失望 黑暗之中徬徨
試問誰能知道我心裡的難過
惟主基督能洗去我臉上淚行
跌進困難 沒法清楚正路
不懂跟主腳步 只去偏走誤途
試問誰能清楚這問題的對錯
惟主基督無所不知 懂去解釋因果
此刻碰著我 是魔鬼的引誘
要佔據我的心 要令我不清楚



主 讓我屈膝禱告去傾訴哀怨
願你進我心扉去醫治痛苦傷口
奉獻一生作活祭 受帶領奔向光輝
願你的心意彰顯在我跟前

背棄我神 沒法謙卑順服
迷於今生驕傲 失去清高態度
盡全力去掩蓋我深重的罪過
但主基督永不容許誠實忠貞被攻破
痛快沉淪 代價必需背負
接受鞭打屈辱 奔走崎嶇窄路
我困倦 我傷透 疲乏缺力完全不可奮
求主賜我 屬天恩典 使我得氣力承擔這痛楚
此刻我面對與魔鬼的戰鬥
我決不會放低 對基督的信心

主 讓我勝過挑戰至不會死去
願你掌管一切 叫公義徹底彰顯
願再信靠愛慕你 永遠也不會捨棄
榮耀的冠冕 將要為我存留
由黑暗變白晝

在希望中心底必要充滿歡樂
在困苦危險中更加要忍耐
是你憐憫關心 愛眷無限的真
令我信念堅守不變
決意不會向魔鬼屈膝

願靠著主基督 來奔向永生去